On and on it goes...

A few people have asked how I am since the surgery two weeks ago, and I have to tell you that they weren't kidding when they said the recovery would be SLOW. Wow. I am feeling better than at the beginning, when it felt like my throat, tongue, jaw, and ears were on fire. The "on fire" feeling has decreased from all day to maybe four hours a day now. My ears and jaw still hurt a lot, and I'm very sleepy. They won't refill my narcotic anymore so I have to just take Tylenol during the day and save the rest of the narcotic for at night. All I've eaten since the surgery is applesauce, ramen, tapioca, fudgcicles, cream of wheat, and mashed potatoes from the box. I eat those same things, 'round the clock. I have to wake up a few times a night to take meds and eat, too. The worst part is I can't be there for Zeke. Very little lifting or talking (can cause bleeding), plus mornings with him are shot as I'm pretty nauseated till early afternoon from the pain and the med and in bed a lot. It's pretty obvious that he knows something isn't right. I miss him so much and feel very helpless. We will get through it, though...

Tonight is our first softball game with the Good News Bears team that Shane is heading up in the Story City league! A lot of our friends are on the team, so it should be a lot of fun. If I'm feeling good enough, Mom and Zeke and I might go watch for a little while. It would be fun to play, but this summer Zeke and I will probably just be in the cheering section when we can!

Tonsil Adventure

It's been a week since surgery. The first three days were hard, but went better than expected. On Saturday I threw up from the narcotic. Then it started to hurt more. Then on day 5, I puked three cups of blood, was taken to the ER by ambulance, and had blood clots removed from my throat. My blood pressure plummeted but they pumped fluids into me to bring it up. If that happens again, the clots will have to be cauterized (burned), which would mean more pain.

My mom is here AND Shane has taken some work time off just to take care of me and Zeke. At this rate Mom will be here for a month! Thankfully, she wouldn't have it any other way and neither would we. Swallowing feels like that sharp pain you get when you bite your tongue, but the pain meds help. The meds make me sleepy and nauseated. I eat applesauce, mostly, to keep the meds down. Zeke can tell something isn't right, but he's doing great. I recorded myself talking, singing, reading to him, etc, and that helps a LOT! I just thank the Lord that he is bringing us through this time into something much more beautiful. I know he has a reason for all of this, and we are being drawn closer to him through it.

"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." -Jesus Christ